Wednesday, August 5, 2009

A Beautiful, but Lonely Day

While hot, it is a lovely day-perfect weather for the pool. We are stuck indoors, baby napping and my trying to play with Charlotte this morning (not going so well because she is punishing me for leaving her yesterday - you know acting out, getting into things, etc.). Doug is back at school and our lives now adjust to a new way of life for a while.

My loneliness is not a new struggle. It is something I have been dealing with since before the first of the year. With Doug gone, my sister back in Texas, and most of the rest of my family out there waiting for the arrival for my little niece (who is due tomorrow but seems to be taking her time) my loneliness has just welled up once again.

At nearly 31 years of age I am learning a lot about myself. I am a project person and sometimes I think I focus on projects so I don't have to "deal" with things that I need to. There are lots of things that play into my current lonely state - some are my fault and some of this is just the place the good Lord has placed me. I don't have any encouragement really to offer here just a request for prayer for me and to ask that you take the time to talk to someone you haven't talk to in a while. You never know what they are going through and how they may desperately need you right now.

A happier post about friendship is coming soon. I am looking for pictures that I can use to post - I may have to dig in some boxes to find a few. :) Praying you find peace and rest in whatever you are dealing with today!


stephanie said...

i can definitely relate. and sadly working together has made it harder for us to maintain a friendship i think...since we don't ever have time to talk about personal stuff with all the work we're trying to cram into our limited work schedule. we should really work on you and will definitely pray.

Kathryn Anne (Kate) said...


Know that you are not alone in this at all. I understand exactly how you feel. With Meg and my Bestie moving and being single I can empathize. I will be praying for you. I miss you guys and told Doug I want to plan a visit to see you guys soon.

Love you,

erin said...

Dear Alison,
I am really enjoying reading your blog since we became friends on fb. I can definitely relate to the feelings of loneliness...even amidst a very full life and having beautiful children to love! I like your faith and acceptance that this is the place the Lord has you in right's very inspiring and encouraging. Check out my blog at http://unicyclemomm.blogspot.html