I have pictures to post - lots, in fact. They are still in the camera waiting on me (like so many things in my life). Anyway... I thought I would post a funny twist on a not so funny topic. I have been very anxious this weekend. When I begin to worry about something I tend to let it take hold. It is an awful habit and I feel horrible - as well as so many around me. This morning I woke up feeling oh so anxious - so badly that I felt I would explode. I had prayed about the situation, given it to the Lord, been in the Word, everything and couldn't get peace. I hate when I do this because I know I truly am the problem here.
So... I go to pick up Charlotte to put her in her seat to feed her breakfast. The whole time I am doing this I am thinking I wish I could just cry. If I could cry I would feel better. Well, my sweet Charlotte, right after I picked her up, reached out and slapped me across the face. I was stunned. Charlotte normally does not do this and was disciplined accordingly, but right after she slapped me I began to sob. I believe this upset her more than the discipline she received.
For me crying is such a sweet release most of the time. It wound up refreshing me and with the encouragement and prayers of some friends, I am feeling much better.
If you don't struggle with anxiety, you are truly blessed. I truly hope that one day I can completely release this big problem in my life and find peace that God is, indeed, in control. So... while my child didn't act in a manner pleasing to her mother, God used her indiscretion to grant me a little relief and "slap" me back to reality. :)
I know I shouldn't laugh, but I had to because this reminds me of a story that my mom always tells about one time when I slapped her. Granted it was when she was telling me "no more milk" when she wanted me to stop breast feeding but its one of my favorite stories.
ReplyDeleteI think that God was definitely using Charlotte to slap you back to reality. Can I borrow her because I have been feeling the same way and could use a little slap myself!?! ha.
I don't know how you do all you do and how you managed to organize everything for the bash giveaway! Amazing job! I hope I will be able to keep it together as well as ALL of you mothers I know!!!
Suzie,
ReplyDeleteThanks for the sentiments and I am glad you got a chuckle out of my story - one of the many reason I choose to blog so I can look back and remember the funny stories.
While I don't condone Charlotte slapping you, I understand one's need to jerk out of his or her anxiety stupor. I wish this wasn't a problem for me but it is. It is just nice to know that I am not the only one that seems to struggle with this perplexing problem we call anxiety.
praying for you friend. and you know i so relate to the anxiety thing. why do our children tend to capitalize on it? we really need to get together as friends soon.
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