Baby Steps

Charlotte has been taking baby steps for the last two months but she has been too tentative to really take off on her own. This weekend Doug and I noticed her taking a few more little steps on her own here and there. We are half-way into the week and she is now walking across the living room. It is so fun to watch her as she wobbles away. She is still a little scared at times, gets frustrated, resorts to crawling when she wants to move a little more quickly, and she falls constantly - all the while getting back up and doing it all over again. She just keeps getting better at it.

Amazing that I can learn from my child's baby steps. I have been feeling a little overwhelmed at becoming a mother a second time, having two so close and wondering how I am going to be able to do everything - I am still planning on working come May. Doug is back to school and coaching (which means he is home very little), my parents officially moved this week, and I have been a little lonely (hard to believe with how busy my day seems to be).

I realize that in just a few weeks I will be starting yet another new chapter in my life - a mom of two instead of one. This will require baby steps in the beginning. I will be scared, frustrated, resort to whatever can make things happen, and I will fall constantly - all the while getting back back up and doing it all over again. I, too, will get better at it and over time life will feel normal again.

My husband will still be working, my parents will still be far away, and I may feel lonely, but I will eventually adjust and find my life and person as a mother of two.

Don't get me wrong, motherhood is wonderful and very rewarding - it is the best thing I have ever done. Like all things in life rewards do not come without hard work and a price. So... thanks, little Charlotte, for teaching Mommy that her next chapter in life will require baby steps that will eventually result in walking across the living room with great success. :)